Deployment #2

Well, he's gone again. I'm left behind to wait. I knew this was his job when we got married, but it still doesn't make it any easier. He's a marine, and I couldn't be more proud of him. 13 months, they're saying. That's more than a year. A year. You can't get that back. 2009 will be a year that we lose. I am back home with my family, and getting settled. My sister and her family took me in this time. I am so grateful for my family. They are the only thing that gets me through. Them, and a few dear friends. I am a Marine's wife, and there was never a second thought as to what I would do throughout another deployment. Wait. And love him. And pray for him. Just like I did the last time. I read this somewhere, and it rings so true. "I miss him so much, but I love having him to miss." I would wait on him forever if that is what I had to do. Because he is worth it. He is my soul mate, my other half. I am incomplete without him. But I will be complete once again, because we will make it through this deployment. He will come home to me, we are strong, and I will live for the day that I can run and jump into his arms again. That day will make it all worth it. Worth all the restless, tearful nights, worth all the worry, worth all the loneliness. That next "first kiss", "first hug". It will be all better then.

Can't believe it's that time again

True heartbreak

Holding on tight to last until next time

Meet Our New Baby...

This is Kojak, our newest "furbaby". He's a 12 week old Australian Shepherd. Jason got him for me to keep me company during this very hard deployment coming up. I think he will help fill my time and keep me busy:) Isn't he just the cutest thing?!

Times like these...

I am extremely overwhelmed. I HATE moving. HATE it. I'm sitting here taking a breather and trying to recover from a low blood sugar (due to packing non stop for several hours), and I'm now realizing it's midnight, and I have to get up and start again at 6 am. Boo. Please pray that I get it done and don't get a migraine. I'm going to go cry now.

Just Feel Like Rambling

I honestly can't believe that Christmas is over. We still celebrate the season until after New Year's, but I just feel like it flew. More so than any other year ever. We did have a wonderful Christmas. My sweetie got me a veeeery nice professional grade Nikon camera (pictures coming soon!), and a beautiful estate-looking ring. We enjoyed wonderful food and special time with family. We also just got back from visiting some family in Georgia yesterday. We took off the day after Christmas. It was a fun trip, but it was super quick and a little strained that close to Christmas. We're back at Dad and Mom's for the week, and then leaving to go home and pack, pack, pack...move, move, move on Saturday. Jason has a leave "window" now. It's mid-January. I was so hoping for February, but no such luck. We will be out of our house by the 13th and done with inspection so we can enjoy the last little bit of time we have together. My dear friend Tiffany is opening her home to us, so that we can do this without spending a small fortune on a hotel room. We will, of course, get one the last night or two. I feel a bit overwhelmed at this point. There is so much to do, and I'm dreading going home because I know it will just be one step closer to Jason leaving again. The sleeplessness has already kicked in, the worry, the stress. Why couldn't Christmas last a bit longer....

MERRY, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! I WISH EVERYONE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS AND A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

The Hustle and Bustle

Mon: 9 am Hair Appt.
Finish Laundry and Pack for Maryland
Tue: 6 am - be on base to get orders for Maryland training trip
9 am - pick up rental car for trip
10ish - Drive, drive, drive
Wed, Thurs, Fri: Jason has training in Maryland
Fri: 10 am - Make our way back home
Sat: Celebrate Jason's and my friend, Tiffany's birthdays, going to Mike's Farm for yummy country style dining and a Christmas hayride

One week to be home and relax!

Fri, Dec. 19: Head home to be with our family for Christmas!

I love Christmas time, but man it gets busy!

From Our Family to Yours!

My New Ride

We got a Ford Edge to replace our totaled Jeep. It's a used, 1 owner 2007 model. Complete with the front to back sunroof and the touch screen navigation. Yep, I like it.

Happy Birthday Austin!

To a handsome little boy who has lit up our family's world even more. We love you so much and hope you have a very happy 4th birthday. I can't even believe my little nephew is 4 today. He's grown up in the blink of an eye. A very real reminder not to ever take even one second for granted! Enjoy your day sweetie:)

Goodbye My Trusty Jeep

My Jeep was a good vehicle. It protected me in a wreck that could have been much worse in a different (smaller) vehicle. Tuesday afternoon I was heading to Michael's craft store when I wasn't even off of our road yet. It was drizzly, and I saw it coming. There was no place I could go, no time to move out of the way. The lady driving a Toyota Tundra had looked down and was not paying attention to the car stopped and waiting to turn in front of her. She was speeding. She slammed into that car, rear-ending him and pushing him up the road, and apparently jerked her wheel in my direction, then slamming into me. Hard. She spun me 180 degrees and pushed me up into the middle of someone's yard. I was shaking, in shock, bawling, but alive! I couldn't get out because of the door being crunched in. It pushed my seat up and over, and another inch would have pinned my legs. I somehow climbed across and out the passenger side. I was taken by ambulance for neck and back pain where I was checked out and x-rayed and realeased with muscle relaxers and anti-inflammatories for severe strains. Jason just so happened to be at his "field op" this week, but was able to come to the scene, but was made to return (that's the Marines for ya!). So, my wonderful family once again pulled together, and my Momma and Grandma hit the asphalt headed to take care of me. They got here around 1:00 am and stayed with me until this morning since Jason's field op is over today. They were heaven sent! They cooked, cleaned, rubbed my back, toted me around to get everything done that follows a wreck, and just took wonderful care of me. What a blessing they are, and I hope they know how much that means to me. How much they mean to me. How much my whole family means to me. I can't imagine a better family. I love them all so much. Well, I think it goes without saying, that the Jeep was totaled. The axle and frame were bent beyond repair. We still have so much to do, but we did have gap insurance, so that will cover the remainder of what we owe after we get the settlement from the other party's insurance. Thank the good Lord. But, with all that said, I walked away from this nice and sore, with just some bruises. After this, I don't think I will ever be able to drive a small car. The Jeep protected me from a more serious injury, that I am sure of. RIP my dear jeep. You served me well;o)

Pictures from the junk yard

Got Tagged

So, I'm doing this little survey at the request of my youngest sis. These are always fun little things to do.

1. Who are your favorite authors?
God, Nicholas Sparks, Frank Peretti, Ted Dekker

2. What is your favorite movie?
The Notebook, Top Gun, Fireproof, most all Christmas movies.

3. If you could live any where in the world where would it be?
In the MOUNTAINS!!!

4. What is your least favorite food(s)?
Spaghetti

5. What is your least favorite movie?
Superbad...it was the foulest, dumbest movie I have EVER seen...and I didn't even sit through it all, I couldn't!

6. Who is your favorite actress or actor?
Kirk Cameron, Rachel McAdams, Sandra Bullock, Queen Latifah, Steve Martin

7. What do you do when your bored?
Read, Scrapbook, Knit, Watch TV, Nap, Bake, Shop, Clean...too much to do to be bored!

8. What is your favorite color?
Pink and Blue

9. Least favorite color?
I don't think I have a least favorite. I LOVE color.

10. Who are you going to tag?
Anybody who wants to do this:)

My Uncle Skip

I still can't believe it. We sometimes forget that we are not in control of what happens in this life. God is. And it was Skip's time to go be with our Heavenly Father AND his earthly father (who was second in line to greet Skip once he met our Savior, I have no doubt). God called him home before we planned. But, we have to remember that God's timing is not always ours. And God's timing and plan is perfect. Ours isn't.

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To lose somebody is tragic, to lose them unexpectedly...unexplainable. This is what my family endured this past week. The loss of my Uncle Skip was unexpected. 44 years old. So young by today's standards. He was a good man, he loved God, he knew God. He was human. He made mistakes. He wasn't perfect. But, he knew God. And that's all that we are required. Believe. And he did.

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He was rough around the edges. A man of few words at times. A country boy who loved motorcycles (Harleys to be exact) and guitars, loud music, big dogs, football...Panthers football, and kids. He had a soft spot for kids. A gentle giant. He may not have had a lot of money, but he was always thinking of fun gifts for his great nephew Austin, and Alaina. He was like that when Ashley and I were younger too. He loved his family, and though he wasn't fluent in emotions, he always let us know one way or the other. And when you were fortunate enough to recieve one of his hugs, you remembered them. I will forever remember the embrace in the hospital room once my grandaddy had passed away. It was strong and full of emotion. An uncle who had just lost his dad and best friend, holding his neice who had just lost the only grandfather she had left. I can't wait for our next hug, for that one will be a joyful, "I'm so happy to see you" hug. I sometimes just daydream about the glorious reunion in Heaven, with the ones we love so much that have gone on before us.

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I am so grateful that God has given me such a close, close family. Without that, I know we couldn't have pulled through. A close family rallies around when tragedy strikes, and we had family coming from far and wide. The love I experienced during this blur of a week is the main thing that I can recall from it all. Our family has experienced a great deal of loss in less than two years. I've never had so many deaths hit so close to home. It's a terrifying and sobering event. But I can't imagine how much more terrifying it would be and is for those who don't know the Lord. I will see my loved ones again. And that is the only thing that brings me peace in knowing that I can't see them again on earth. I will see them in Heaven.

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What a joyful reunion that will be.

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Skip...we will miss you everyday, and forever carry you in our hearts.

A Bunch of Unrelated Thoughts

1. Jason finally sold his truck! It's such a relief. Now I don't have to worry with it for a year while he's gone.

2. I'm doing laundry today. It's my least favorite chore. No, no, dusting is. Wait, mopping, that's my least favorite. Nooo..toilets, scrubbing toilets..that's DEFINITELY it.

3. We're going to Mike's Farm on Friday. They have a country style dining restaurant that is so very yummy, then we are going on their spook trail hayride and picking out a punkin. I think it's fun to be a little scared;o) Hence the reason, I too, watch Ghost Hunters (Ash & Jenn).

4. I'm getting a new phone. It's one of those high techie things. It has a whole keyboard that slides out. Texting just got so much easier.

5. There are only 65 days left until Christmas! Where has this year gone? If only next year will go by as quickly!

6. My friend, Jessica, is coming down in 16 days. I haven't seen her in a year and 8 months. It will be a much needed reunion.

7. Jason has a "field op" coming up. He will be "in the field" for 4 days and nights. I sometimes hate military terms. Just say...you'll be camping in the woods for 4 days.

8. I'm totally stoked about our visit to Pine Ridge Church, on Jenn's invitation. Jason and I haven't been this pumped up about church in a long time, as we've had a lot of trouble finding a "fit" with moving around quite a bit.

9. Speaking of Jenn, I finally got to see her after 10 months when we went home and visited Pine Ridge last weekend. It was emotional. Boy, I missed her.

10. The military life doesn't always allow us to see our family and friends as much as I'd like. Military life is good, but it does have it's flaws.

11. I want to see snow. And not just on TV this year.

12. I talked to Austin on the phone the other day. He told me "miss you". Didn't just make my day, made my week.

13. It's lunch time. I know, because my stomach just growled like a stray dog cornered in a restaurant dumpster.

14. Since I now realize it's lunch time, this is my last random thought. I can never remember how to spell restaurant. I realize this is the third time I've used that word in this post, and each time, I have to refer back to spell it right.

I'm Done

...with all my Christmas shopping!!! Yep, that's right, it's all done and it's only October 15th. This is the earliest I have EVER finished shopping for Christmas, and I intend to thoroughly enjoy every minute of the upcoming season since Jason will be gone next Christmas. This also means that I will start putting up some of my Christmas decorations in November, before Thanksgiving. I don't usually do that, because it tends to overshadow the Thanksgiving holiday, but we are headed home for Thanksgiving and it will be nice to have it all put up when we return. All of it but the tree, that is. We'll be bringing our live tree from the mountains back with us after Thanksgiving, as it's our family tradition to go cut our own trees from the lots up in the beautiful mountains. We'll put that up and decorate it the day we get back. There's nothing like the smell of a freshly cut Christmas tree. Oh, and in all my Christmas shopping glory, I found the most heavenly scent for the Christmas season. It's called Silver Bells by Yankee Candle. It smells like an evergreen, but something in it makes it smell just a little different from every other evergreen candle I've smelled. It will live in my house a little closer to time.

Only 71 days 'til Christmas!!!

It's That Time of the Season

It's the fair! Pretty lights, kids running around, the yummy smells of food you can only get at the fair, the overpriced games, the fast, spinning rides. We're headed there tonight. I love the fair in the fall.